Nope, that's not mine, sorry to say.

June is such a crazy month for people with school age kids. However, Dan and I have been having fun too. We had our own field trips. For Dan's birthday I arranged that we could actually spend a night in S'toon sans kids (thanks Mom and Dad!) and take in the annual Harley test ride. So that was fun. This video was of Dan taking off on the last of 5 half hour rides on 5 different Harleys. I wish we could just buy one but I think Harleys are reserved for retirees or the independently wealthy. I went on two rides with him, one of which was comfortable. The other one was on a sportster and had no backrest so I was hanging on for dear life and didn't enjoy the acceleration as much as I would have if I couldn't vividly imagine myself being left behind on the highway.

Two weekends later it was my turn and I got to experience a City Chase in Calgary with Dan's little sister Juanita, who is into that sort of thing. She was more prepared than I was but boy, it was fun! I am hoping that this becomes a yearly tradition for us. It was kind of like what I try to set up for the kids I treat - sort of a combination scavenger hunt, obstacle course, orienteering challenge, and code-breaking treasure hunt. Not to mention running miles and miles in order to have the privilege of doing feats of strength and agility (not so much in my case) in order to get "Chase Points."

So, in the six hours we were racing, we did the following:

1. used a lacrosse thingy to throw and catch a ball three times. Harder than it looks.

2. climbed a climbing wall about 30 feet and rappelled down. Too sweaty and time-challenged to get as scared as this deserved - we had run about 3 miles to find this one which other chasers kept saying was "just over there!" Ha!

3. completed a batch of weird gymnastic/bootcamp sort of tasks such as flipping a tractor tire, vaulting over a bench 5 times, doing leaping somersaults, and some sort of scaffold climb.

4. filled a bucket to about 3" with a "holey pole" - a PVC pipe with lots of holes drilled in. Very refreshing.

5. got hooked around our waist to a rope that was tangled in a playground web maze monkey bar thing and had to follow the rope from one corner to the other and then have our partner follow it back. Nice way to meet new people as several teams were doing this simultaneously.

6. frisbee golf - 3 "holes" or trees in this case. I suck at frisbee. The volunteer was bored of leading and did this with us which was fun as he even did the penalty burpees for all the throws above par we did (only 8!)

7. yoga poses in front of Lulu lemon. Pretty easy and at this point nothing is embarrassing anymore.

8. climbed all 800 steps of the Calgary tower. Wanted to die around step 320. If we had known there really was 800 steps we probably would have. We were hoping for closer to 500.

9. some orienteering challenge in a big park that involved lots of climbing and running. And cute rabbits hopping around.

10. the best one at the end - kayaking in a large loop on the river in a two person inflatable kayak that was mostly full of water. That's why we're all wet in the picture.

11. We got one more point for raising money for the charity the race sponsored - Right to Play.

Anyway, there's no race like this in SK because I guess they tried it in Regina and there was next to no interest. I can't imagine why because this was so much fun. There were tons of chase points we just didn't find or didn't have time to find but which would have been great. Oh well, next year. Thanks again, Juanita!

The rest of my life is involved with the usual end of school year chaos. I am off to the school for most of the day tomorrow cooking for grad as my son is in Gr. 7 and that grade does the honours I guess. Work is incredibly busy and that's good. It's so much easier to plan adventures when it's not snowing or pouring rain. (It still is pouring rain a lot but at least the sun comes out in between for a while now). I managed to plant the rest of my garden last week but I have no idea how it will actually do. It's pretty late now.

As it has just finished raining for the day (I hope) I could go outside now and do something useful, or I could chart. Sigh! Probably I should chart. Oh well, summer is here.

Good kind of black

I love rototilling. I finished up yesterday, at least the first round. There is something so addicting about clean black dirt replacing gray, weedy, packed down old garden. It's like a blank slate and a new morning and fresh green grass that hasn't gotten too long yet and just smells good. All possibility and no annoying maintenance required yet. Wow, I'm like a teenage girl with a new boyfriend.

Anyway, it is really truly summer here and we are getting our third day in a row of 30 above. I love it! The only problem is that last week I walked right into a coffee table. Consequently I have this enormous bruise - it's probably the size of an apple and it's deep black with a yellow centre, right on side of my left thigh. It looks like someone hit me with a bat. At least this is a bruise I remember acquiring. Most I have no idea where they came from, but that hurt. So I can wear shorts and deal with sympathetic looks but you gotta feel for Dan every time this happens to me.

Tomorrow my oldest son turns 13. Wow again. That is something. Every time Seth has a birthday I think of Zach (hey, Wendy) and how it is his birthday too and I wonder how you all are doing but I don't call because I know this is a rough time of year for you. So just so you know I do think of you. Anyway, Seth is going to be a teenager and he really is growing up. Deep voice and laid back humour and skills! I'm so proud of him. He had to babysit some kids yesterday for his babysitting course and of course they loved him. I think he had a good time even though the three year old girl apparently dragged him around by his thumb for three hours.

I have to say because I'm trying to explain to Dan why I love rototilling - wouldn't it be great if you could rototill a relationship? You forgot to weed and some parts are getting overgrown with quackgrass and the edges are becoming blurry and the packed down parts are blending with the plants - so, take out the rototiller - spend some quality time just going around in circles with a pleasant vibratory sensation going through your arms and voila! nice clean relationship ready to start all over and soft and warm to boot. Sigh. The world should have a rototiller.

Anyway, Heidi turned 8 last month and Seth is turning 13 tomorrow and Dan is turning 42!!! next week and time is ticking on. I went out with a friend of mine yesterday who told me that I should not expect to get less tired as my kids grow up - so make sure and have fun now. Ha ha! That is so not encouraging! I feel like I have always been tired in waves and weekends but now it seems to be a more or less permanent thing. Apparently I should keep on fighting gravity and working out and doing all the stuff that comes AFTER the rototilling that is less fun because this is life. Specifically my life which I have voluntarily made labour intensive so quit whining.

Okay, I will. I'll get on with life too. I'm off now to take Levi to the dentist as quick as I can after he gets off the bus and then I'll pick up bread and come home and make supper and put the kids to bed and clean the kitchen and get ready to do it all again tomorrow.

But my garden is right now perfectly clean.

Blue sky

Well, today we got over the hump I've been most worried about with Jetta. I was able to ride her in our 1 acre square pasture and she figured out she had to listen to me even though she really didn't want to. Her pasture buddies were far away and she wanted to get to them and we had a bit of a rodeo and she figured it out. Hooray! Now we can go places. I've been able to ride her 4 times this week because of the fantastic weather and because I've had time. It's been so wonderful and she has progressed so far. If I can do the same for one more week we will be able to go anywhere.

It is so beautiful outside!! After this winter which was so dark and gloomy I just feel like drinking in the sunshine through a straw. It's like taking off layers of clothes you forgot you had on and stretching. Now if we can actually stay healthy we will so enjoy this summer.

I've been working on our two long haired cats - speaking of taking off layers of clothing. Poor things, their fur is so matted up it's amazing they can move at all. So I've been going out with scissors and chopping it off. They look so ugly but they actually mind the process very little, considering it must feel very weird and I do occasionally nick them by accident. I think they have figured out that the overall effect feels good. Cougar, our tom, poor thing, got into a pretty bad fight a few weeks back and is healing slowly. He also has a bad case of ear mites and so every time I come at the other two with scissors I also squirt a bunch of ear cleaner in the general direction of his head. It's helping but he's not too thrilled with that :) Ah spring!

Dan and the kids started on the chicken house in the barn today. We've been hard at work discussing dimensions and where to put the chicken "yard" and the door arrangement and what breeds we'll get. It's also very encouraging. Spring goes with new young animals. We haven't had new chicks here for so many years it will be quite thrilling for all of us. So the current plan is to use the back sixth of one side of the barn (about 10 x 6 feet) and have a people door with a chicken door cut in the bottom. Then we'll roll the "chicken hotel" up to the door. This will be a low pen that is roofed with chicken wire and on wheels so we can drag it all around the pasture and let the chickens peck at a nice salad variety of bugs and weeds.

I still cannot believe we are getting this extra month of perfect weather. It's so nice because it's just warm enough that jeans and a sweater are comfortable (which are great for riding) and yet there are no bugs yet. This morning two geese soared right over my head and backwinged down onto one of our sloughs just about a hundred yards from where I stood, with their gloriously discordant honking. And yesterday an entire flock of what were probably chickadees went swirling by all excited about mating and nests and being back (I would assume).

Happy Easter everyone! Christ is risen! He is risen indeed!

Being happy!

We had such a great time at Dave and Deb's amazing corner of forest/creek/field/hill/loghouse under construction. I'm so glad we could get there for a visit, even if it was way too fast. And muddy. I'm pretty grateful for the sand we live on here - the clay is still drying off our boots and we are slowly vacuuming it up as it falls off.

This week is pretty quiet and I am celebrating the time and fantastic weather by working with Jetta so that hopefully I can be trail riding her in the next month. She is now walk/trotting with me on her back in the round pen and giving to the bit and the reins much better. I started at this point last spring right with the trail rides and quickly realized that while she didn't mind me riding her, she also didn't notice me riding her, so we have been focusing quite a bit on her noticing me - from the ground and now on her back. I don't know what I would do without John Lyons' approaches. It is so neat to see her "get it" and begin to do what I want her to without any need to terrorize her, lose my temper, or be unsafe. It just takes more time and patience. Thankfully I now have little blocks of time.

And, I am running again. Last year was almost a total write-off because of all of us being so sick all summer and I fervently hope we don't have a repeat. As long as I run 4 minutes and walk one I can go for half an hour. I am hoping to work up to about an hour straight but I'll take what I can get. My knees are not getting any younger. If I have to bike I will, and maybe I will anyway to change things up now and then but it's nice to have options.

The one thing I would like to get back to and haven't yet is writing. If I could run, ride, write, and work with kids that would be a perfect week. The cooking, cleaning and laundry would magically do themselves. And now I am looking at the muddy mess our garden is and starting to think about that expensive hobby as well . . . There's never enough hours in the day. But at least with this sunlight I feel a bit more like doing things in the hours there are. Hooray spring!!

I think, although I feel a bit guilty about it, I will continue to fill up the days this week with fun stuff. On Friday the kids are home for the ten day Easter break and I will probably be back to swimming to keep my head from going under. No mosquitos, no horseflies yet, and the ground is almost dry. What a great March.

Not a clue what to call this

Wow, I've been thinking so hard this past week that now I'm all disoriented. We have been setting up group therapy options for Attic Therapy for the summer, and I have been concentrating on sorting out a bunch of logistics and philosophical theoretical STUFF and now the mailout is DONE and I am just useless. It's fortunate I have nothing very pressing to do today except to pack to visit my brother and his family this weekend. I'm in the sort of headspace to get lost on the way to PA.

This weather probably doesn't help at all. It's cold and gray and windy and depressing. Really hard to believe that this weekend will be 10 above. I have been searching all over the house for a book to read to kind of "reboot". There's nothing here, because all my favorite books have been reread 12 times or are up in the barn still - and it's just too cold to feel like rummaging around up there. So I'm starting Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time series for the fourth time. That's pretty desperate. But it's in the house. And certainly qualifies as escape. Does anyone have any suggestions in case I can get to the library today before piano lessons? We will be traveling for at least 7 hours to get there and it's pretty hard to talk that long with three interested little commenters in the back seat.

I did do my "Cindy" workout today and am feeling pretty proud of myself that I can now get through it pretty much without injury. My sisters-in-law all know the video-that hour long one that is insanely hard. She made it well before she had kids, that's for sure. I've been easing back into shape since December and this week was able to do a couple of actual runs outside (through cold depressing snowy weather, yech) as long as I walk every 3-4 minutes. My knees are shot and my shoulders are shot and probably I should just bike already but I hate biking on account of the world goes by you so fast that if you are the least bit disoriented (which I frequently am) it is hard to keep track of basic safety information such as trucks approaching from behind. Dan does not understand that at all but he has superb sensory integration and is a bit of a snob. All my clients would understand totally.

Well, spring has to come eventually. It came and went and that was a tease but the world is tilting. It really is. The light is incredibly different than even a month ago, reminding me that technically we are already in the best part of the year and I should take advantage of it, but it is hard to imagine that very cold rutted garden ever coming to life. I am so looking forward to this spring and working with the horses for large chunks of time. It may actually be possible!

Anyway, I am also proud of myself for posting on this blog and not forgetting to for another 3 months! Trying to nurture good habits! Talk to you again!

Well, I'm back.

So you'd expect the dead of winter to be a Good Time for Blogging. Apparently not in my case. It's just because my life is so darn exciting. I guess that's how I'll frame it. It actually has been a terrific winter and it appears to be over already as the snow is 3/4 gone and the kids are running around shooting each other with potato guns (????) and getting mud all over everything. I'm fine with that. I cannot wait for green to reappear.

Anyway, I feel compelled to "catch up" which is probably illogical as many of you don't really care and it's not like it really matters. . . I'm still working out why people need to share their thoughts with the internet and the faceless masses. I guess I'm hoping that "you" include all the people I have known and loved and subsequently have become geographically separated from, in which case this may help us feel more caught up the next time we do get to see each other in whatever context works . . .

So, since I last posted the following of importance (to me) has occurred:

• I completely ended my employment with the Prince Albert Parkland Health Region for the second time since I moved to PA area. Maybe the third - can't remember. Anyway, I guess pension and benefits are screwed. Anyway, I/we have committed to Attic Therapy and that was probably a major reason for my silence in the last few months - very intense changeover.
• Shortly after I totally quit, we got a letter from the pension fund saying that I was getting a check for the sum that I had overpaid in the last ten years (since I last quit totally, I guess). This sum happened to correspond actually quite nicely with the amount it would take to all go to Disneyworld. Wow!!!
• I spent December feverishly researching, booking and confirming reservations, and then made a terrifically fun treasure hunt for the kids for Christmas morning . . . :)
• Also in December we managed to go to Steve Bell's Christmas Concert in S'toon. What a terrifically rich music experience. He was playing with his small band - piano, guitar, double bass I think (huge cello thing), and drums, but backed by the Saskatoon Symphony Orchestra. It was so beautiful. The kids could really appreciate it thanks to their piano lessons giving them just enough to know that this was really great music.
• We had a great Christmas with both families but missed Dan and Amber in Texas and Tim and Cheryl in Terrace.
• January was incredibly busy with Attic Therapy taking off right out of the gate. I am so happy for the demand but my concern this year is to figure out how much I can sustainably work without jeopardizing my mom role which is priority for me. So lots of discussion between Dan and I and playing with various scenarios and opportunities as well as continuing to work with the absolutely tremendous families we are involved with. Such a privilege.
• February was a month of getting ready to go and a huge sigh of relief when the passports appeared in the mail. Whew!!
• Seth gave us a scare by getting another (he had one all through December as well) major chest infection - asthma related and difficult for him to shake, but he did by the time the plane left the ground.
• Then, Feb 24 to Mar 3 we were gone! 6 marvelous days in Florida packing as much into the time as we realistically could. Thankfully, the whole time we were there the kids hardly even blew their noses. It was cold and wet for Florida (although not as bad as it had been earlier I guess) but we had a terrific time. We stayed totally in WDW as there was just not enough time to start all the other stuff in Florida or even Orlando, but we all really enjoyed it. It was fun to see each kid finding their own really favorite part. There really is something for everyone.
• We didn't get back til the afternoon of March 4 and I (meanie that I am) took all the kids to piano that night despite us all being tired (we caught our shuttle to the airport at 2 am the morning we left and arrived at Grandma and Grandpa's close to midnight). Hopefully that decision had nothing to do with both Heidi and Levi getting tonsillitis almost immediately and being put back on antibiotics.
• And today (March 15 - wow, the Ides of March) we are cleaning the house and cleaning out the frig after a wonderful visit from our friends the Schatzleins (well, except Don who had to stay home and look after the sheep, yes literally). We were so encouraged and had so much fun with their wonderful family. Daniel and Benjamin and Heidi are older than our kids by about 5 years but were so wonderful in joining in with them enthusiastically in whatever they/we were doing. It was a wonderful visit - too short as always.

So, back to normal I think. And I do want to go back to a routine that includes blogging because I so value my relationships and there are too many to even begin to keep up with information wise.

Take care all! Happy Spring!!

Finally . . .

Another month and my whole world has gone upside down again, like the ship in the third Pirates of the Caribbean. Last Monday I resigned from Mental Health and finally decided to commit to Attic Therapy whole-heartedly. I have tried in many ways to keep both roles, but the perception of a conflict of interest persisted with the valid point that I was serving the same general population in both a public and private role. While I think that our public system really needs to provide OT to kids with complex mental health/developmental issues, I guess I had to choose once and for all if I was going to do that and give up private practice totally. Couldn't do it. So I have given up working for the health region with great regret. Hopefully they can find another OT to take on that role which would be a great scenario. I have one more week of finishing up reports and tying up loose ends. Then I have a completely free week to treat kids for the first time since I quit my preschool position! That is exciting.

This weather is fantastic - beautiful fall skies with clear sunshine through the bare trees and cold but calm and really, not that cold at all. I am slowly revving down today after a very tumultuous week of dealing with the emotional fallout of my decision. Today I feel completely limp despite two large cups of strong coffee. I may get laundry done but not much else. I have made a lot of good friends in a short time at Mental Health and other friends I have had for much longer. I am hoping to keep those friendships despite the change in work location. On the other hand, the idea of not constantly wrestling with a juggling act is appealing. My coordination has never been that great. This will also give me the time and room to do things that I feel like I need to do to stay myself - do stuff with my horses, be outside, keep up with the day to day stuff with the kids, write.

I can't even think of anything else to write now though - I am so tired! Other stuff has happened - H1N1 shots, Levi's 9th birthday, pickling beets, Halloween and so on. However, that's all I can say about that. Cheers, all!